Eating the Alphabet

Truth is...
I've been super lazy with my restaurant review thingy.
I'm just going to list the names of the restaurants I go to from A-Z.

Here's what I have so far:
Aroma Cafe
Bombay Cafe
La Choza
Don Chuys
Eduardo's
Fat Burger

Tumblr - Day 26

Day 26:
What you think about your friends

I think my friends are the most amazing people I've ever met.
They're all so talented and unique.
Each of my friends has a special place in my heart. 
<3 

Photoshop Perfect Magazines

I've always loved photoshop
because you can alter reality.
You can also make cool creations,
make things 3-D, and a whole bunch of neat stuff.

But it seems as if the biggest use for photoshop now
is to make people seem pretty and flawless.

If you use different filters,
you can also make pictures look worse,
although nobody would want to do that.

Except me.

Same picture. 
Different filters.
Not exactly flattering.
The top left is the original picture,
top right is HDR,
bottom left is infrared,
and bottom right is made to look Holga-esque.
In the HDR and infrared picture, you can pretty much see every freckle,
every imperfection,
every flaw.


Why don't they use these types of filters on magazine covers?
How about, instead of trying to convince us that all these people are gorgeous and haven't a flaw in the world,
show us that they are actually NOT perfect? Just like us.
Instead, they use pictures that look more like the Holga-esque one, which are slightly more white-balanced and look slightly less flawed.

I'm not perfect.
No one is.
Reality is,
no one is the photoshop perfect that you find on magazines.

Sudden Realization

Prayer is like 11:11 at any time of day. 

Alone

Not many people ever believe me,
but,
I like being alone.

Whenever I'm at home,
my parents don't let me go somewhere just to be alone.
I have to always be with friends so some "stranger doesn't come up to me".

I would LOVE to go hiking by myself, climb to the top of a mountain
and just sit there the whole day.
I would love that.

But the only way I'd be able to do something like that would be if I was with friends or family.
Not that I don't like being with friends or family,
I do. 
But sometimes,
I just really need my own personal time.

The only time I can ever find time to be alone is when I'm with my friends.
Which sounds odd, but I usually feel alone with friends anyway, so it's not that bad.

I dislike when people isolate themselves for the purpose of trying to draw attention to themselves.
That ruins the whole point of being isolated.
If you want attention,
just tell someone.
I don't want attention.
I don't.

Sometimes,
I just want to be alone.

Can't Help But Wonder

Sometimes I can't help but wonder:
what am I doing here?
There are so many more useful people on this Earth.
I don't really have a purpose that I'm aware of.
No special talents,
no great looks,
no extravagant tastes,
no life-altering opinions.

I'm just here to.. well..
sit at my computer chair at 12:47am
and write about nothing
while I stream Tumblr and see
how cool people's lives are.

One things for sure -
I don't know anything that I am,
but I sure do know what I'm not.

Tumblr - Day 25

Day 25:
What I would find in your bag

• Chapstick
• House key
• Mascara
• Wax (for my braces)
• Some form of candy
• Stray dollars
• Loose change
• Paper & Pen/Pencil
• If it's random, it's there.

Disney's Idea of Love

Disney songs tend to be depressing with 

their never-ending hopeless-romanticism.

A few examples:

Love Me or Leave Me
Say, love me or leave me and let me be lonely
You won't believe me but I love you only
I'd rather be lonely than happy with somebody else

You might find the night time the right time for kissing
Night-time is my time for just reminiscing
Regretting instead of forgetting with somebody else

There'll be no one unless that someone is you
I intend to be independently blue

Say, I want your love, don't wanna borrow
Have it today to give back tomorrow
Your love is my love
My love is your love
There's no love for nobody else



Unchained Melody
Oh, my love
my darling
I've hungered for your touch
a long lonely time
and time goes by so slowly
and time can do so much
are you still mine?
I need your love
I need your love
Godspeed your love to me

Lonely rivers flow to the sea,
to the sea
to the open arms of the sea
lonely rivers sigh 'wait for me, wait for me'
I'll be coming home wait for me 


When I Fall In Love
When I fall in love
It will be forever
Or I'll never fall in love

In a restless world
Like this is
Love is ended before it's begun
And too many
Moonlight kisses
Seem to cool in the warmth of the sun

When I give my heart
I give it completely
Or I'll never give my heart

And the moment I can feel that you feel that way too
Is when I fall in love with you


When She Loved Me
When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
And when she was sad, I was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy, so was i, when she loved me.

Through the summer and the fall, we had each other, that was all
Just she and I together, like it was meant to be
And when she was lonely, I was there to comfort her
And I knew that she loved me.

So the years went by, I stayed the same
And she began to drift away, I was left alone
Still I waited for the day, when she’d say "i will always love you."

Lonely and forgotten, never thought she’d look my way,
She smiled at me and held me, just like she used to do,
Like she loved me, when she loved me

When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful,
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
When she loved me.

I Won't Say I'm In Love

If there's a prize for rotten judgement
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history - been there, done that!

Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'
He's the Earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, you can't conceal it
We know how ya feel and
Who you're thinking of

No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no
You swoon, you sigh, why deny it, uh-oh!
It's too cliche
I won't say I'm in love

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry your heart out
Oh

You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown-up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad

No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no
Give up, give in
Check the grin you're in love
This scene won't play
I won't say I'm in love

You're doin' flips read our lips
You're in love
You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say it
Girl, don't be proud
It's O.K. you're in love
Oh
At least out loud
I won't say 

I'm in love

BEDA Day 19

Day 19: Book Review–You pick the book, review it.


The Secret Life of Bees.
I'm not good at reviews,
but I absolutely LOVED this book.
It's a nice, easy read. 
I recommended it 100%.

BEDA Day 18

Day 18: Top Ten List–You pick the topic, then make it a Top Ten List

Top Ten Things I Want To Happen Someday:

1. Go sky-diving.
2. Attend Rocky wearing next to nothing.
3. Have one of my postsecrets published on the website for a week.
4. Save a life.
5. Fall in love.
6. Have kids/adopt kids.
7. Invent something useful to many people.
8. Have a song of mine published on iTunes.
9. Ride on a motorcycle, hugging the boy driving me.
10. Write a book and have it published.

Every day.

All I'm gunna say is:
The Notebook.
One year.
365 days.

I'm on day 9.
I wan't to tell you so badly.
But at the same time, I don't.
I want it to be a surprise,
but at the same time, I don't.
I suck at surprises.
I can't stand them. They're too intimidating.
Maybe you'll read this post
and ask me what the hell I'm talking about.
Then I'll tell you.
I want you to ask me so I can tell you.
But I don't want to sound like a freak
and just tell you randomly, out of the blue. 

Like I said.
Day 9.
Only 356 to go.

PS                 

I kinda "low-key" wish

you were doing the same 

thing I was doing. I wonder

what you'd have to say.

Random thought #15

I know you can't see me via text message, but I'm hissing at your text right now. Because you make me smile. And I smiled. But I shouldn't have. HISSSS.

Lover's Secret Song

I watched Moulin Rouge for the first time two nights ago.
I really, really, really liked it.
And, as usual with these romantic movies that I watch,
it inspired me.

If ever you're with her, and I hear you humming, singing, playing, ANYTHING-ing to the song "Can't Take My Eyes Off You", I'll know you still do love me. And, like Christian, I won't be jealous. Even though the Duke is trying to steal you away, just sing me that tune, and I'll know that, like Satine, it's just your great acting skills. I'll know that you don't love the Duke and that you do, wholeheartedly, love me.
If you don't.. well, I'll know you actually love the Duke.
I'll let you be happy with the choice you make.

Yes, I'm aware the real Lover's Secret Song is "Come What May".
But that was their story. This is ours.
Or will it be?

BEDA Day 17

Day 17: This I Believe–What’s your personal motivation in life?



My motivation in life?
Currently, it's my friends and myself. For the future, it's the chance of a good life and true love.

BEDA Day 16: Guest Blogger

Day 16: Guest Blogger–Take a day off. Find a guest blogger for the day!



Lately I’ve been having pretty bad cases of déjà vu. It has come to the point where I’m getting it at least twice a day. I want to believe that I’m psychic, but I know that my mind is just playing games with me. The thing about the human mind (specifically memory) is that it is constantly playing tricks on us. What we think is a real memory may in fact be distorted as we look back at it. The most noted belief on déjà vu is that it’s just a distorted memory. Something we thought we saw before, but really had never seen. It’s all made up. We may have been in a situation similar to the déjà vu, but we change it in our heads to match what we see. (Our brains also have problems with noticing small changes when so used to seeing something common because we blindly accept it to still be the same). While researching déjà vu I also came upon jamais vu meaning “never seen.” It’s the opposite of déjà vu and a form of amnesia. Along with this is Presque vu, meaning “almost seen” which is close to the idea of having something on the “tip of your tongue.”
I don’t really know why I needed to discuss this, but it’s just fascinating to think of all these gaps in our minds. Hard to believe we get anything out at all.
“When I first saw you it felt like déjà vu of a dream I wished to keep. As life goes on it becomes jamais vu, a gap in memory. Now a Presque vu so close and nearly touched. But just another déjà vu my mind wanted to make up.”

- Thank you Adam (:

BEDA Day 15

I'm so so sorry I haven't blogged in forever! My little brother is always on the computer. Grahh ):<

Day 15: Follow Friday–Suggest a YouTube channel or video you love

http://www.youtube.com/user/cimorellitheband

My friend introduced me to them,
and I absolutely LOVE them.

Torn. Right down the middle. Torn.

The only way I cannot be in Love with you is if I anger you so much that you can't stand me anymore. Then you'll dislike me, and maybe I'll fall out of Love.

Time To Take Charge

I'm actually not too worried what you think of me, believe it or not.
You're not in charge of me.
You have no say over what I do.
I'm gunna do what I wanna do. I'm gunna do what makes me happy. 

You don't like me?
Fine. I can't please everyone.
My life isn't controlled by what you say I can or can't do.
I'm building a bridge and crossing new oceans.
I'm not scared of you anymore.

"If you're a bird, I'm a bird." <3

BEDA Day 14: "Warm sun, cool breeze"

Day 14: TILT–Things I Love Thursday

Good friends who are always there for me. Holly. Jessica. Adam. Lorenzo.
I love this day because it consisted of:
warm sun and a cool breeze,
long walks,
the air in my face,
being told I'm talented,
Chipotle,
Roots,
headbands,
love,
and mostly,
big realizations.

Too good

I'm never going to be good enough.
Ever.
I should have expected this.
Everything good in my life is always too good to be true.
I should have seen this coming.
All I did was set myself up for failure.

- Rebecca Marie Heron

BEDA: Cookies and Chicken

Day 13: Fave Recipe–Doesn’t have to be something you make. Grandma’s cookies? Mom’s casserole?

When he uses his secret recipe,
MY DAD'S COOKIES. Are THE. BEST.
So are my moms. 
And my dad's Chick Cordon Bleu.
And his granola.
And pretty much anything he makes.

I've always aspired to be as good a chef as my dad.
He works at the firehouse so he's used to make big and tasty meals.

My mom makes good food too,
just in way smaller portions.

Oh, I also have my own lemonade recipe that I came up with. 
It's quite good if I do say so myself.

BEDA: Instant Water

Day 12: Brain Crack Ideas–What are those great ideas or inventions you have but haven’t made happen? Your million dollar ideas.


Shoot. I'm sure I have so many good ones. Just not anything I can think of off the top of my head.
Besides my amazing idea of instant water. All you do is add water.
My friend says it's as useless as a pet rock /:
I just think he's jealous (:

Escape

Whisper sweet nothings to me.
Hold me like you'll never let go.
In the middle of the night, squeeze me tighter.
Wrap your arms around me.
Hold me in your warm embrace.
Lay by my side and look in my eyes.
Rest your head next to mine on the pillow.
Hold my hand and just breathe.
Run your fingers through my hair.
Put your hands on my face.
Kiss me.
Don't make too much noise.
No one knows we're here. 
Let's get away from the world.
Escape with me.

Like and Love

Liking someone is liking the things that are good about them.

Loving someone is liking the things that are good about them, in spite of the things that are bad.

BEDA Day 11: "Start Over"

Day 11: Dream Vacation–If you could go anywhere or do anything with anyone..what would you do?

If I could go anywhere, I would go away.
I don't really care where.
Just... anywhere.
I wish I could just run away from my problems.
Go live somewhere else.
I'll have new problems there,
but at least they will be new problems.
I'm tired of my problems.
I've been dealing with them for too long.

If it could be with anyone,
chances are,
it would be with no one.
I want to start over.
By myself.
I've messed up my life.
Only a few of my old friends barely even try to make an effort to stay friends with me.
Or that's how it seems, at least.

I would still come back to visit the friends I do have.
But I want to move away.
Start over.

Video games have that option - of starting over -
... why don't I?

Dictionary.com: Nostalgia

nos·tal·gia

/nɒˈstældʒə, -dʒiə, nə-/ Show Spelled[no-stal-juh, -jee-uh, nuh-]  

–noun

1. A wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one's life, to one's home or homeland, or to one's family and friends; a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time: a nostalgia for his college days.

2. Something that elicits or displays nostalgia. 

3. A yearning for the return of past circumstances, events, etc

4. The evocation of this emotion, as in a book, film, etc  

5. Longing for home or family; homesickness  

6. A bittersweet longing for things, persons, or situations of the past.

[C18: New Latin (translation of German Heimweh  homesickness), from Greek nostos  a return home + -algia ]

 

BEDA Day 10: "I'll admit"

Day 10: Off Your Chest–Get something off your chest: your pet peeves, opinions, rants

Hi. I'm Rebecca. I'm a person, too.
I'll admit:
Sometimes, I'm wrong.
Sometimes, I'm right.
You'll admit:
You're always right.
I'll admit:
YOU'RE NOT ALWAYS RIGHT.

BEDA Day 9

Day 9: Photo Essay–No words. Just pics. Tell us a story. Take us on a tour. Show us something pretty.

BEDA Day 8

Day 8: Follow Friday–Suggest a blog you follow

Every Little Annoying Thing

http://www.blogger.com/profile/17180826215690983185

BEDA Day 7

Day 7: TILT–Things I Love Thursday, BEDA tradition where you talk about what you loved that week


Wizard of Oz performances! Almost done.

BEDA Day 6

Day 6: Best Live Entertainment–Describe the best live entertainment (theatre, concert, comedy, etc.) you’ve ever experienced

The best live entertainment that I have experienced was Rocky Horror Picture Show. 

BEDA Day 5

Day 5: If I won the lottery–
What would you do? Finish the statement.

If I won the lottery,
I would put a good amount of the money into savings for college and life after college.
With the rest of the money, I would buy little gifts here and there for my friends,
and use the gifts as reminders of how much I love them.
I would also buy snacks and living supplies for homeless people and pass them out.
I would donate money to organizations which I feel strongly obligated to,
such as Job's Daughters and any organization dealing with the treatment of homeless animals - especially my grandmother's rescue group, Starpaws. 

Memorial Service

This morning, I attended my friend's uncle's memorial service.
It was very simple and really nice.
The guy who was speaking had an amazing speaking voice, and every word
he said hit me with such magnificence. My eyes were tearing up the whole time.
Every sentence he said was so quotable.
I'm really glad I went. It made my friend incredibly happy,
and seeing her smile meant the world to me.

"In the sweat of thy face shalt thou eat bread, till thou return unto the ground; for out of it wast thou taken: for dust thou art, and unto dust shalt thou return."

BEDA Day 4

Day 4: Best Advice–That piece of advice you got that you’ll never forget.

So many pieces of advice that I will never forget.
I guess my favorite would be "Everything happens for a reason".

BEDA Day 3

Day 3: Crushes–Celebrity, literary (author/character), musician, actors, intellectual, inexplicable

I do have celebrity crushes and such,
but I'm bad with names.
I don't know who they are.
Show me a picture and I'll tell you if I like them.

BEDA Day 2

Day 2: Day in Haiku–Write about your day in haiku (short 3-line poem w/ 5-7-5 syllable pattern)


I read a letter
Given to my by a boy
Boys are confusing. 

BEDA Day 1

Day 1: BEDA Intro–Up to you how to intro yourself.

Hi! My name's Rebecca. I'm 16 years old. Junior in high school. Excited and scared for college, even though I still have senior year. I'm excited for senior year. My school's musical for this year is Wizard of Oz. I'm a tree. And a bunch of other chorus parts. You should come and see it. This is the last weekend. I can say that most the cast has literally put blood sweat and tears into this production. And glass. But that's another story.

BEDA

Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'm aware that I never finished my November challenge. 
I'm on day 25 of that. Almost done.
I'm just gunna try to do this one for April.
Then maybe I'll finish the one I started in November.
Here we go.

Day 1: BEDA Intro–Up to you how to intro yourself.
Day 2: Day in Haiku–Write about your day in haiku (short 3-line poem w/ 5-7-5 syllable pattern)
Day 3: Crushes–Celebrity, literary (author/character), musician, actors, intellectual, inexplicable
Day 4: Best Advice–That piece of advice you got that you’ll never forget
Day 5: If I won the lottery–What would you do? Finish the statement.
Day 6: Best Live Entertainment–Describe the best live entertainment (theatre, concert, comedy, etc.) you’ve ever experienced
Day 7: TILT–Things I Love Thursday, BEDA tradition where you talk about what you loved that week
Day 8: Follow Friday–Suggest a blog you follow
Day 9: Photo Essay–No words. Just pics. Tell us a story. Take us on a tour. Show us something pretty.
Day 10: Off Your Chest–Get something off your chest: your pet peeves, opinions, rants
Day 11: Dream Vacation–If you could go anywhere or do anything with anyone..what would you do?
Day 12: Brain Crack Ideas–What are those great ideas or inventions you have but haven’t made happen? Your million dollar ideas.
Day 13: Fave Recipe–Doesn’t have to be something you make. Grandma’s cookies? Mom’s casserole?
Day 14: TILT–Things I Love Thursday
Day 15: Follow Friday–Suggest a YouTube channel or video you love
Day 16: Guest Blogger–Take a day off. Find a guest blogger for the day!
Day 17: This I Believe–What’s your personal motivation in life?
Day 18: Top Ten List–You pick the topic, then make it a Top Ten List
Day 19: Book Review–You pick the book, review it.
Day 20: How To (Anything)–You pick the topic, show or tell us how to do it.
Day 21: TILT–Things I Love Thursday
Day 22: Follow Friday–Suggest a Twitter personality you enjoy
Day 23: Interview Someone–You pick a person real or fictional and interview them.
Day 24: Holiday Traditions–You pick the holiday, and tell us your traditions.
Day 25: Ideal Karaoke Mix–You have an entire karaoke evening to yourself, what’s your set list?
Day 26: I Never…–You know the game. What’s something you’ve never done?
Day 27: Movie Ending Rewrite–Rewrite your favorite movie’s ending…for better or worse. Up to you.
Day 28: TILT–Things I Love Thursday
Day 29: Follow Friday–Suggest a website you adore
Day 30: BEDA Wrap-up–Wrap up your BEDA experience however you feel is best

I made you a song

I made you a song
but you'll never know
what the lyrics mean
or how the chorus goes

I made you a song
but I don't think I'll show you
I made you a song
back when I used to know you.

I made you a song,
it has a catchy beat
they'll clap their hands
some might stomp their feet

These people, they'll enjoy it,
but they won't know what it means
These people, they'll enjoy it,
but only for what it seems.