Career Test

I was accepted into the college I want to go to
for a major in Business.
Because, at the time, I didn't know what I wanted to do.
And business seemed like a safe place to start.
So that's how I applied to colleges.
With a business major.

Later on,
I realize that I really want to be a teacher.
For little kids.
Especially those with learning disabilities/those who need special education.
That what I want to do.

And then I remembered,
when I was younger, I aspired to be a cosmetologist.
But that dream got ruined when I realized I'm not as good as other people at make up.
And I don't have that many make-up brushes.
And my hair bleaching skills aren't as good as I thought they were.
So I gave up my dream.

Then,
art. Art is like perfection that threw up everywhere.
There are so many options in art. You can be yourself in art.
Everything is art. Even bad art is art. I wish I were good at art.
Because then I'd do art.

So today,
I took a career test.
And I realized...
All I really want to do,
is cook. And bake. And chop and dice and ice and blanch and mince and roll and boil.
I really want to be a chef. A pastry chef. A restaurant chef. A cake designer.
God, I'd do anything to be a chef.
And go to culinary school.
But here I am.
Stuck with business.
I don't like business.
There are fifty things I like more than business.

It's a good thing I'm young.

Like, love

I liked you when you held me.
And then it started to seem like you liked me too,
because you liked to hold me how I liked to be held.
And then I got scared.
I don't want you to hold me anymore.
Because you might like me.
And that's a scary thought.