Never Give Up

"Never Give Up on Something You Can't Go a Day Without Thinking About"

Unless it's driving you crazy. Then just say "SCREW THIS".
Except, that still doesn't work, because you still go to bed every night thinking about the same thing..
and you feel like your life is a never-ending circle.
And you feel like you'll never move on
and you feel like your life isn't worth living.
And you feel like it's not just a want anymore
and you feel like you need it.

Something that you're accustom to having.
Something that you had every day.
And now it's gone.
And now it's not there.
Cold turkey.
Nothing is the same anymore.
Nothing feels right.

You were fine.
You found that something.
You were better.
You lost that something.
You were awful. 
It's past the point of caring.
And you're still awful. 

So even though I'd like to give up,
I literally can't.
Because that's still what I think about.
Every day. And night.