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Friday, February 18, 2011

For The First Time - The Script

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
But we're gunna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time

Monday, February 14, 2011

The Sky and the Moon and the Stars and the..

You make me feel like I can touch the stars.

When I'm with you,
I can reach out and grab hold of the moon.
Your love is as infinite as the dark blue night sky,
and as beautiful as the stars that fill it.
You are the man on the moon,
and I am the little girl, standing on solid Earth,
waving at you every night.
I only see you for a brief time, since you only shine with the moon,
but it's better than anything that goes on in my day.
Without you, I'd have no place for my heart to stay.
You're a castle to hold my love
and a sand box full of mystery
with an element of surprise.
You're everything good in my life
and everything I need.
You bring me smiles with your one smile.
Your smile is as contagious as the flu -
I catch it every time I lay eyes on you.
There's really no words that can describe this feeling..
other than sweetie, I LOVE YOU.

Happy Valentines Day, everyone.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

The Soul's Oblivion

I want to cry.
So much.
There's way too much going on in my mind.
I'm having way too much internal conflict.

I can't do it.
I can't.
I can tell myself I can,
and I can motivate myself to do so..
I can't.
I can't do it.
I'm sorry.
I can't.

What am I doing?
What is this?
I have no reason.
I thought I had a reason.
I don't.
Why am I doing this?
To be honest,
I don't know.

I know that part of the reason I'm doing it
is because I'm trying not to hurt other people,
but honestly,
it's to the point where I'm hurting myself.
Not something I wanna be doing.
I've been enduring it,
but there's no reason for it.
I can't do it.
I don't want to do it.
I need to breathe.
I haven't had time to breathe.
I need it.
I can't think straight.
I can't see straight.
I don't know what I'm doing..

What AM I doing?
I don't know.
There's too many questions invading my mind.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do.
I can't handle this.
I can't answer any of my own questions.
I don't want these questions.
These questions shouldn't be here.
I shouldn't be where I am right now.

I'm not who I used to be.
I'm not what I want to be.
I'm not who I want to be.

I want to be who I used to be.
I want to be who I am.

But right now,
I don't know where that me is.
That side of me.. she's hidden.
Covered in dust.
I can't see her.
I don't know where she went.
I want her back.
I want myself back.
I want back the simple care-free life I once had.

What I want is
for all my questions to go away.
All my troubles.
All my worries.
I want to light them on fire and feel the heat of them burning
and smell the smoke in the air.
I want them to vanish like a puff of smoke.
Be gone.

Troubles, be gone.
Please, be gone.

This isn't what I want.

I thought it's what I wanted..
but I'll tell you right now.
Crying is not what I wanted.
This is not what I planned for.

Somebody save me...
no one can save me.

I've dug myself in such a rut.
Days like these make me feel that there's no way out of this oblivion..

Rebirth of a Death

Friendship - diminish. Diminish, diminish.
As soon as it started; it started - just started.
It's like I'm being punished - punished and punished.
For the rebirth of a friendship - it's friendship, just friendship.
How could this happen? It always happens to happen - to me.
As soon as it started it ends like it ended - it's ending so quickly, oh please tell me you see.
Well, do you see? It's killing me, see? Killing me slowly - but it's still killing me.
It worked out so perfect - so prefect indeed. So perfect it might not have been real, but purely a dream.
But now? It's dying. As fast as it came.
For not, it's dying; it's dying... again.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Always there.

You're in the air I breathe.
You're everywhere around me.
Every time I turn my head,
every time I close my eyes,
you're always right there
in the front of my mind.

You're implanted in my memories, your smell I cannot rid.
You're implanted in my heart, your place that you did dig.

Nothing can replace you - no one, no way, no how.
Nothing can replace you - your smile, your laugh or frown.

Your eyes, oh how they catch my eye;
Your breathing takes my breath away,
Your hands looking so lonely without mine;
Your hips without their sway.

And at this point, there's nothing more,
no actions - do or say.
And at this point, it's up to time
and chance to lead the way.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Restaurant: A

Aroma Cafe.
What kind of food is it?: Mediterranean food. 

Description of the restaurant:6 small indoor tables. Ranging from 3 seats to 6.
Outdoor seating in a cute little patio with flower pots.

They ranged from $6 for a kebab and mini salad, to $24 for a combo plate (which included beef patties, kebabs, and shish kebabs).
Drinks averaged at $3
Desserts at about $5

There was only one waitress, who was also working the counter. The service was kinda slow because of this, but not incredibly slow, considering as there was only one chef.

It was mostly an older crowd.
There was nice music playing in the background.

My order:
I ordered a shish kebab, which came with a small Greek salad, and a cappuccino.
The food was good and the cappuccino was nice and strong. They were small portion sizes, but just enough to fill someone up. There was also warm bread served, which was very tasty.

There was a cute little shopping corner, which had imported products from Bulgaria and places in that area. There was tea, chocolates, crackers, pickles, sugar cubes, and other native foods of Bulgaria.

Do I recommended this restaurant?:

I'd say yes, but only if you're looking for a little not-well-known place to eat and talk.
It was a small, quite little restaurant that I'm guessing usually has mostly the same people.
It was a nice experience overall. 

Fake A Smile

 No One Needs To Know

Faking a smile is so easy to do,
especially when no one can see you through.
Saying you're tired usually does the trick,
especially when you're sly and can think real quick.
Nobody needs to know,
and you're considered conceited if you let it show -
that although you sound happy as you say "hello",
you're really at an all time low;
so far away from the accepted status quo.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011


Here we go.
I told my parents about something I had read somewhere.
It involves going to places to eat..
but here's the thing - the names of the restaurant that you eat at have to be in alphabetical order.
So basically, we're gunna eat our way through the alphabet.
Whenever we go out to dinner from this point on (until our challenge is finished),
hopefully it'll be in line with where we currently are in the alphabet.
This isn't a 26 day challenge since we don't eat out every day/night,
but there should be 26 different restaurants involved.
I'm really excited because I think it will be a great way to experience different cultures' foods and decorations (inside or outside the restaurant).
I'm going to make a post for each restaurant we go to.
Since just saying the name is lame,
I'm also going to give my review on the food and the atmosphere of the restaurant. I'll mention things I did or didn't like, whether or not I recommended it, and other little tips or comments.

I've never really done reviews like this before
because, well, I'm pretty un-opinionated.
I don't think it's fair to judge things just from one experience,
but I'll try my best to be as brutally honest as possible.

Let the games begin!